I'm now working in this company as part of the production team for about a month now. As I may have earlier mentioned, I'm a customer service representative. My short time with this company has garnered a lot of learning experiences. I have learned patience, perseverance, and tolerance. At first, I have learned to like it. I handle all my relationships outside of work the same way I handle work, with caution and political correctness.
Although I am getting very good ratings for my job, it seems that my life is still as empty as before. I feel that I'm not cut out to do this type of work. I seemed to be happy with my last employment, except that it was really getting stagnant and I felt like I needed to move on. Now that I did, I still feel as empty as before, if not, maybe even more. Maybe I just don't know what to do with my life and my career. So for now, I guess I'll just keep on pushing on and keeping up the good work. Maybe someday, I'll finally get into the type of work that'll keep me happy.
Bob is still watching me from the sidelines. I bet he's saying to himself, "At least the bum had the courage to accept change." Nonetheless, I still feel like a fucking bum.
People at work have been great. They support me and I support them. Unfortunately, this isn't the crowd that I would like to be exposed to. It seems like I am a bit too mature for them. Not that I am bragging, but if that's how it sounds like, then so be it. At least one of them understands me. This person is the guy who also quit the old job to join the team. Unfortunately, our trio hasn't been united yet. Soon, we will be. And things may get back to the way they used to.
Monday, September 04, 2006
Friday, July 28, 2006
Internet is Shit
If you want to listen to a person blowing smoke, and using big words like they have a point, click on the link below.
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Wednesday, July 26, 2006
New Beginnings
I have quit my job as project manager to pursue a less luxurious title. I am now currently training to become a customer representative. Yes, it's a lower position, operations, to be exact. I have had a few other choices which could have landed me a higher paying, yet less stressful job position. Mother Teresa has been known to say that the more a person suffers, the closer he gets to God. I'm only applying the analogy. In my case, the harder I work, the more I enjoy the rewards.
This isn't only my reason though. Aside from allowing myself to be able to experience true happiness, I also have my selfish reasons. The place I'm working now, enables me to be close to the people I want to be around. Call me weak, but yes, I'm going where my comrades are going. I do not long for acceptance in this society. I don't long for the approval of anyone. I just want to surround myself with people whom I can learn from, whether they be my enemies, or my friends.
In this case, the reason I'm moving on, is because of my friends. The winds of my life has taken me in a different direction. I just hope I can navigate the surf until I can see the land.
This isn't only my reason though. Aside from allowing myself to be able to experience true happiness, I also have my selfish reasons. The place I'm working now, enables me to be close to the people I want to be around. Call me weak, but yes, I'm going where my comrades are going. I do not long for acceptance in this society. I don't long for the approval of anyone. I just want to surround myself with people whom I can learn from, whether they be my enemies, or my friends.
In this case, the reason I'm moving on, is because of my friends. The winds of my life has taken me in a different direction. I just hope I can navigate the surf until I can see the land.
Friday, June 23, 2006
Pirate Bay Gives EA the Middle Finger
I just love it when people don't give a shit, and show it poetically. Electronic Arts has been dissing the Pirate Bay with emails threatening them with a lawsuit. Here's an example of how went down, and how TPB reacted:
It doesn't stop here. There are also threats from Apple, Microsoft, Dreamworks, etc. which TPB also responded in kind. Technically, TPB isn't commiting any sort of copyright infringement. They are only expressing free media. If anything, I think they're bridging the gap between different types of culture. The companies that are pressing these lawsuits are really digging themselves into a hole. I think the only way to stop "piracy", which is really a very fluid concept, is to stop selling their software.
For now, until they can illegalize BitTorrent technology, TPB will continue to rock on and continue to practice free media. I'd like to tell everybody from TPB, "God is on your side."
TPB Legal Threats
> This unauthorized activity with respect to the
> distribution of EA's software products
> constitutes infringement of EA's intellectual
> property rights. EA enforces its intellectual
> property rights very aggressively
> by using every legal option available.
Please don't sue us right now, our lawyer is passed out
in an alley from too much moonshine, so please atleast
wait until he's found and doesn't
have a huge hangover...
It doesn't stop here. There are also threats from Apple, Microsoft, Dreamworks, etc. which TPB also responded in kind. Technically, TPB isn't commiting any sort of copyright infringement. They are only expressing free media. If anything, I think they're bridging the gap between different types of culture. The companies that are pressing these lawsuits are really digging themselves into a hole. I think the only way to stop "piracy", which is really a very fluid concept, is to stop selling their software.
For now, until they can illegalize BitTorrent technology, TPB will continue to rock on and continue to practice free media. I'd like to tell everybody from TPB, "God is on your side."
TPB Legal Threats
Monday, June 12, 2006
Same Old, Same Old
I don't think I should be writing anything here today. I don't feel anything's changed. Sure, I have a lot of free time now, but I sure am doing nothing about it. I don't know. I just don't care anymore. I told an ex-coworker who asked me what do I want to do in the future, this is what I told him: "If somebody wanted me dead, I'm not sure if I'm going to make a hit on him before he does me, or if I just sit, wait, and welcome death."
This is how vague my concept of a future is. I don't even know what I'm going to do tomorrow, how much more plan out the rest of my life. Honestly, I want to die. I feel I have no purpose in this life anymore. If only I didn't have a loving and supportive family, it would really be easier to take my own life.
This is how vague my concept of a future is. I don't even know what I'm going to do tomorrow, how much more plan out the rest of my life. Honestly, I want to die. I feel I have no purpose in this life anymore. If only I didn't have a loving and supportive family, it would really be easier to take my own life.
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Changes
At this point in my life, my career advancement has gotten a bit fluid lately. The work I do now can hardly compare to the work of my dreams. I'm still happily employed except I'm starting to see that I'm almost in collision with a dead end. One of our workers once told me about the three Rs. 1) Relax, 2) Resign, 3) Resume. When she mentioned that, I just brushed it off with a laugh. As time passed by, I came to realize that she was totally right. If you want your life to progress, you have to be susceptible to change. This is my greatest fear. But then again, fear is what pushes me to do my best.
This is what I've finally decided to do. Although sometimes, my laziness takes the better of me, I'm making it a point to move forward in my career. I have to find ways to expose myself and flaunt my skills. Currently, I'm a jack of all trades, master of none. I haven't found my niche yet. I think my commitment problems also have a contribution to all this. Anyway, the next best thing to do at this point, is find out what interests me the most, and work with it.
Currently, I'm still hanging in the balance. I should be able to get up off on my feet soon before I hit that dead-end wall.
Let me end this by sharing something a wise lady once told me, "When you get to the top, never forget the people who put you there. Because whether you realize it or not, they put you where you are, therefore they can also pull you back down."
This is what I've finally decided to do. Although sometimes, my laziness takes the better of me, I'm making it a point to move forward in my career. I have to find ways to expose myself and flaunt my skills. Currently, I'm a jack of all trades, master of none. I haven't found my niche yet. I think my commitment problems also have a contribution to all this. Anyway, the next best thing to do at this point, is find out what interests me the most, and work with it.
Currently, I'm still hanging in the balance. I should be able to get up off on my feet soon before I hit that dead-end wall.
Let me end this by sharing something a wise lady once told me, "When you get to the top, never forget the people who put you there. Because whether you realize it or not, they put you where you are, therefore they can also pull you back down."
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Dying Days
Well, at this point in time, I have no idea what to do or where to go. My life is literally at a stand still. I'm still 22 years old and I'm already in a stagnant state. I feel the need to retire and enjoy life's finest things. But I know I shouldn't. Mainly because I have yet to experience more of what the world has to offer. Bob keeps reminding me of that. Quite frankly, I'm happy with how much I've accomplished and how far I've gone. And this is what scares me the most. Because I haven't done much. I get contented even though it's time to go for more. I have more responsibilities to take care of, and obligations to fulfill, but the lazy ass me is saying, "Settle down, Relax..." when I know I shouldn't.
I'm only going where the wind takes me. I should be making my own waves. I should be the captain of my heart. I should be a leader somewhere in my soul. But no, I'm happy being here, where I'm at. This isn't right. This shouldn't be the case. I know my capacity as a thinker. I know I can do more with my life. I know I can make a difference in this forsaken planet. I just don't know where or when to execute. Or I know when and where, it's just that my laziness is eating out the better part of me. I have not the slightest idea.
I'm going crazy. I'm going nuts. I'm just glad I'm not alone.
I'm only going where the wind takes me. I should be making my own waves. I should be the captain of my heart. I should be a leader somewhere in my soul. But no, I'm happy being here, where I'm at. This isn't right. This shouldn't be the case. I know my capacity as a thinker. I know I can do more with my life. I know I can make a difference in this forsaken planet. I just don't know where or when to execute. Or I know when and where, it's just that my laziness is eating out the better part of me. I have not the slightest idea.
I'm going crazy. I'm going nuts. I'm just glad I'm not alone.
Sunday, March 19, 2006
MPAA Vs. TPB
Quoted from the full story:
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"All of us who run the TPB are against the copyright laws and want them to change," said "Brokep," a Pirate Bay operator. "We see it as our duty to spread culture and media. Technology is just a means to doing that."Word!!!
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Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Bob Strikes Again
I was lying on my bed, thinking of what I've been through and where I might be headed when something painful hit me in the head. It was Bob. He said something to say. I couldn't squeeze in a word. He just kept on talking and talking and talking. Here's the monologue:
Bob: What the fuck are you doing? Shouldn't you be up somewhere reading something or studying something? Or loving someone? It's just like you, you fucking lazy asshole. Lying there, relaxing like there's no tomorrow. You don't know the meaning of pain and suffering. People out there are dying because they don't have food for survival, and there you are, sitting on your lazy ass, and enjoying the finer things in life, even though you don't deserve it. Why, I should smack you like a little bitch right now. Then again, you'll learn your lesson. I guess pain and suffering has to be part of your experience so you'll have some determination to keep your life on track. Boy, you don't know you have it good! It sickens me. You live a life you don't deserve, and you don't even exhert the minimal amount of effort to deserve it. You're a disgrace to your family and what they believe in. Worse of all, you're a disgrace to yourself. Man, you fuckin' suck!
It ended there. I got up, turned on my firefox browser, and started studying this new thing Mark told me about, Ruby on Rails. God, Bob's a pain in the ass, but I try to remember that he's only keeping me in check.
Bob: What the fuck are you doing? Shouldn't you be up somewhere reading something or studying something? Or loving someone? It's just like you, you fucking lazy asshole. Lying there, relaxing like there's no tomorrow. You don't know the meaning of pain and suffering. People out there are dying because they don't have food for survival, and there you are, sitting on your lazy ass, and enjoying the finer things in life, even though you don't deserve it. Why, I should smack you like a little bitch right now. Then again, you'll learn your lesson. I guess pain and suffering has to be part of your experience so you'll have some determination to keep your life on track. Boy, you don't know you have it good! It sickens me. You live a life you don't deserve, and you don't even exhert the minimal amount of effort to deserve it. You're a disgrace to your family and what they believe in. Worse of all, you're a disgrace to yourself. Man, you fuckin' suck!
It ended there. I got up, turned on my firefox browser, and started studying this new thing Mark told me about, Ruby on Rails. God, Bob's a pain in the ass, but I try to remember that he's only keeping me in check.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Saturday, February 25, 2006
The Battle Against Piracy
The MPAA (Motion Pictures Association of America) has launched an all out war against USENET. It's filing lawsuits against Torrentspy, ISOHunt, and other Torrent "suppliers". To me, what they're doing is a lost cause. A few years ago, I forget which association, brought down suprnova.org. It was this torrent site that had thousands of illegal downloads. Anyway, they brought it down, but that didn't prevent other torrent sites from popping up. Did it? I think the MPAA is just looking for a quick source of money. They, themselves don't give a fuck about piracy. Because, if they really wanted the shit to stop, they'd make a smarter move by taking down the source. And that's BitTorrent itself.
Well, until they do, pirates like myself will still have torrent sites to go to.
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Ciao Bitches!
Well, until they do, pirates like myself will still have torrent sites to go to.
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Ciao Bitches!
Friday, February 24, 2006
I Wanna Die...Now...No...Later...No...Oh I Don't Know!!!
I'm not exactly the suicidal type, but I do have my tendencies. I've contemplated suicide quite a number of times, but I just don't see the justification of taking my own life just like that. I want my death to have an impact on the universe, or the very least, the world. I don't mean like people weeping and sobbing over my dead body. I mean like mayhem, destruction, and devastation, all in my name.
I want people to remember me as someone who had a very big impact on the face of the earth. I don't like acts of terrorism either. If I want to be recognized, I want to be famous, not infamous. I want the world to shudder in respect, chanting and singing praises in my name. I want to be a god, with a capital G.
My biggest problem is, I have no idea how to achieve anything I've mentioned above, so I guess I'll stick to living. It's got me thinking though. We've all heard of the five stages of dying. I wonder if I'll be able to stick to those rules. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and finally Acceptance. I think I'll skip the denial part. I have already accepted the fact that we're not immortal. We have got to go sometime. But anger, heh. I won't leave this life without a blast. The world will feel my fury. Mountains will crumble, and seas will roar. Bargaining, what the fuck for? Depression, it's for pussies.
Well, After a couple of minutes of reflection, I guess if I were to leave this life, there are only two stages of dying for me. Anger and Acceptance. For the meantime, I roam this lucid earth, miserable and bitter. And I am loving every single millisecond.
Cheers Bitches.
I want people to remember me as someone who had a very big impact on the face of the earth. I don't like acts of terrorism either. If I want to be recognized, I want to be famous, not infamous. I want the world to shudder in respect, chanting and singing praises in my name. I want to be a god, with a capital G.
My biggest problem is, I have no idea how to achieve anything I've mentioned above, so I guess I'll stick to living. It's got me thinking though. We've all heard of the five stages of dying. I wonder if I'll be able to stick to those rules. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and finally Acceptance. I think I'll skip the denial part. I have already accepted the fact that we're not immortal. We have got to go sometime. But anger, heh. I won't leave this life without a blast. The world will feel my fury. Mountains will crumble, and seas will roar. Bargaining, what the fuck for? Depression, it's for pussies.
Well, After a couple of minutes of reflection, I guess if I were to leave this life, there are only two stages of dying for me. Anger and Acceptance. For the meantime, I roam this lucid earth, miserable and bitter. And I am loving every single millisecond.
Cheers Bitches.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
God Hates His Own Believers...
Quote from Reuters:
"Hopes faded on Saturday for a village of 1,800 people in the central Philippines engulfed by a torrent of mud and rock when a rain-soaked mountain collapsed on homes and a crowded school. Only 35 bodies had been pulled from the reddish soil and 57 survivors accounted for."
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What a tragedy. 1,800 people just dying off like that. No reason at all. Mountain just collapsing without any warning and kills off a whole damn town. Tsk tsk. Personally, I'm not a superstitious person. I don't believe that there's a higher being in control of us all. I believe in science, and that the world is a product of the collision of cosmic particles.
But if I were to stop and think about it, I could also be wrong, right? There could really be a God, right? In my opinion, if there was a God, he's a really mean one. How could he just let all those innocent people living their lives and minding their businesses die out just like that? Where's the justification in all this? And coming from the same country as these people, I can assure you, they are devout Christians. Why did God wipe them out?
Meanwhile, here I am, taking His name in vain, spreading the word that He does not exist, daring Him to strike me down with lightning, trying to debunk every single verse in the goddamn bible...yet he allows me to live. Where's the fuckin' sense in that?
I'll put the sense in that. There is no God. What happened to Leyte was a damn accident. Nothing more. It wasn't God's will to wipe out this whole town. "God works in mysterious ways." Bullshit! IT WAS JUST A GODDAMN ACCIDENT.
Still, I feel sorry for them. My deepest heartfelt condolences go to the affected families.
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Kalapana's The Hurt
I've searched high and low, but I couldn't find complete lyrics to the song. Not that it's a big deal or anything, but the all the lyrics sites I've searched contain the same old lyrics. It goes like this:
Anyway, that's the whole song, but it's not complete. There are a few parts that all lyric sites failed to notice. I don't know if they intentionally did this or what. You might not understand what I mean, so let me explain. Like this part of the song:
Oh what have I done
All the time I guess it was just fun
I gave away this Sweetest girl I knew
Oh, just for you
At the end of this stanza, the singers in the background murmur something but none of the lyric sites above mention what they're saying. I mean, I've been familiar with this song for a long time now, but it's only recently that I was starting to become bothered by this. I try to make out the lyrics myself, but I can't understand a single word. It's starting to become an itch in the middle of my back that I couldn't scratch. If someone helps me out, thanks. If nobody does...
Oh well.
Oh you say you're mine
And I believe you every single time
Even though they say you're not my kind
I just can't believe you'd lie
Oh all my friends are laughing
Seeing you out with other men i'm dying
Cant you see it in my eyes i'm cryin
I just cant believe you're not mine
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Oh what have I done
All the time I guess it was just fun
I gave away this Sweetest girl I knew
Oh, just for you
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Oh i know
I'll never never never know the truth
Oh I love you too much girl to spoil your fun
I can't run
No no no
I can't run
I guess I had it coming
I fooled around before when I was tied
And now my freedom stings me I couldnt hide
But I'd still be a fool all my life
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Hurt the love you gave me
Hurt the man who loves you
Hurt the love you gave me
Hurt the man who loves you
Hurt the love you gave me
Hurt the man who loves you
Hurt the love you gave me
Hurt hurt
Hurt hurt
Hurt hurt
Hurt hurt.. (repeat til fades)
And I believe you every single time
Even though they say you're not my kind
I just can't believe you'd lie
Oh all my friends are laughing
Seeing you out with other men i'm dying
Cant you see it in my eyes i'm cryin
I just cant believe you're not mine
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Oh what have I done
All the time I guess it was just fun
I gave away this Sweetest girl I knew
Oh, just for you
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Oh i know
I'll never never never know the truth
Oh I love you too much girl to spoil your fun
I can't run
No no no
I can't run
I guess I had it coming
I fooled around before when I was tied
And now my freedom stings me I couldnt hide
But I'd still be a fool all my life
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Would you hurt the man who loves you
Would you hurt the man today
Would you take the love you gave me away
Hurt the love you gave me
Hurt the man who loves you
Hurt the love you gave me
Hurt the man who loves you
Hurt the love you gave me
Hurt the man who loves you
Hurt the love you gave me
Hurt hurt
Hurt hurt
Hurt hurt
Hurt hurt.. (repeat til fades)
from Lyrics On Demand
Anyway, that's the whole song, but it's not complete. There are a few parts that all lyric sites failed to notice. I don't know if they intentionally did this or what. You might not understand what I mean, so let me explain. Like this part of the song:
Oh what have I done
All the time I guess it was just fun
I gave away this Sweetest girl I knew
Oh, just for you
At the end of this stanza, the singers in the background murmur something but none of the lyric sites above mention what they're saying. I mean, I've been familiar with this song for a long time now, but it's only recently that I was starting to become bothered by this. I try to make out the lyrics myself, but I can't understand a single word. It's starting to become an itch in the middle of my back that I couldn't scratch. If someone helps me out, thanks. If nobody does...
Oh well.
More Ranting............
Last night, we went to a Kalapana concert. The Hawaiian guys were skilled and talented. They definitely knew what they were doing. The only problem is, most of the people, except me, my family, and a few other people with class, didn't know how to appreciate good music. There wasn't that much of an audience response. It only goes to show one thing. The people in this goddamn country are ignorant. I'm from the Philippines, by the way. No wonder we're not going anywhere. Here are some of the reasons why this country sucks:
1) People here have no fucking taste for anything, including music, books, tv shows, and movies. Look at the shit on prime time, especially the noontime shows. DAMN!
2) Everyone here wants easy money. No one wants to work hard. Here, when you're looking for work, it's not WHAT you know, it's WHO you know. Unfortunately, I have had to take advantage of this concept a whole lot of couple of times.
3) Corruption in the government. We're like the 3rd most corrupt nation in the world. I mean, What the fuck?! I'm not blaming government officials entirely on this though. It's you dumb ass bitches, i mean people...no, i mean...bitches who put them in power in the fuckin' first place.
4) Whenever a foreigner comes along, especially white trash Americans, we bend over backwards just to accomodate them. Hey dumb asses (i mean you Filipinos)! Wake up! Our kind is being treated as second class citizens when we're in their country. Why don't you give these swag, smooth talking, tall ass, high and mighty assholes a piece of their own medicine.
5) Colonial thinking. Everybody thinks that being Stateside is the shizznit. Everyone is leaving for the States. All our skilled teachers, nurses, doctors, IT professionals, etc. are leaving this goddamn country because they think that the States is better. I don't blame them though. It's a whole lot better than this shithole we live in, but on contraire, let me stress this out. THERE IS NO AMERICAN DREAM EITHER. At least, not for us little island people.
If any of you shit heads are reading this, swallow every word and burn it into your dumb ass minds.
Stupid fucks!
1) People here have no fucking taste for anything, including music, books, tv shows, and movies. Look at the shit on prime time, especially the noontime shows. DAMN!
2) Everyone here wants easy money. No one wants to work hard. Here, when you're looking for work, it's not WHAT you know, it's WHO you know. Unfortunately, I have had to take advantage of this concept a whole lot of couple of times.
3) Corruption in the government. We're like the 3rd most corrupt nation in the world. I mean, What the fuck?! I'm not blaming government officials entirely on this though. It's you dumb ass bitches, i mean people...no, i mean...bitches who put them in power in the fuckin' first place.
4) Whenever a foreigner comes along, especially white trash Americans, we bend over backwards just to accomodate them. Hey dumb asses (i mean you Filipinos)! Wake up! Our kind is being treated as second class citizens when we're in their country. Why don't you give these swag, smooth talking, tall ass, high and mighty assholes a piece of their own medicine.
5) Colonial thinking. Everybody thinks that being Stateside is the shizznit. Everyone is leaving for the States. All our skilled teachers, nurses, doctors, IT professionals, etc. are leaving this goddamn country because they think that the States is better. I don't blame them though. It's a whole lot better than this shithole we live in, but on contraire, let me stress this out. THERE IS NO AMERICAN DREAM EITHER. At least, not for us little island people.
If any of you shit heads are reading this, swallow every word and burn it into your dumb ass minds.
Stupid fucks!
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Piracy Is The Best Policy
I just got to work. I'm burned out. I'm a walking blank. I have no idea what I am doing. Anyway, I found a new medical series on TVTorrents. It's called Grey's Anatomy. I'm sure you've heard of this. I don't watch too much TV so this is new to me. I've been watching House MD ever since the airing of the first season. I never miss an episode. Because if I do, I just download it.
I'm a software pirate by the way. It's been a long time since I've gone to the movies. When a good movie comes out, hello TorrentSpy. It's a good source for all the shit you can possible see on the big screen. If the movie's very popular, i just look for a DVD screener, download the damn thing, and wala..Free movie. That's how I do it. Besides, you know what they say, "The best things in life are free." I'm only taking advantage.
Also, I'm running a pirated copy of Windows XP. Some people may say, I'm a jerk and a thief. I don't know what the fuss is all about. First of all, I didn't steal this copy. I went to The Pirate Bay and downloaded myself a copy. And last time I checked, Bill Gates is still the richest working man on the planet. So I hardly think a few software pirates such as myself could affect the turning of the wheels.
Guess that's all the ranting I could do for now. Bye.
I'm a software pirate by the way. It's been a long time since I've gone to the movies. When a good movie comes out, hello TorrentSpy. It's a good source for all the shit you can possible see on the big screen. If the movie's very popular, i just look for a DVD screener, download the damn thing, and wala..Free movie. That's how I do it. Besides, you know what they say, "The best things in life are free." I'm only taking advantage.
Also, I'm running a pirated copy of Windows XP. Some people may say, I'm a jerk and a thief. I don't know what the fuss is all about. First of all, I didn't steal this copy. I went to The Pirate Bay and downloaded myself a copy. And last time I checked, Bill Gates is still the richest working man on the planet. So I hardly think a few software pirates such as myself could affect the turning of the wheels.
Guess that's all the ranting I could do for now. Bye.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Valentines?! What the fuck is that?
I'm sitting here, alone in my room, on this lovely day of hearts. Why? Besides the fact that I'm single? I think that Valentines is just plain stupid. I know what you're thinking. I'm sour graping because I'm unloved. Hell no. I got lots of women who love me. I got chicks waiting in line to suck my dick. But I just feel that Valentines is an excuse for corporations to capitalize. It's become so bloated and hyped up, that it has lost its meaning.
What does it mean? I don't know. And hell if I cared. I've lived so long in this poisoned planet that everything has lost meaning. All I know is, I still exist, and I'm living my life. I don't care what you think. I don't care if you like me or not. All I care about is me, myself, and I.
Getting back to the occasion, Valentines...Flowers...Chocolates...C'mon! Don't you see it? Every single year, ever since the beginning of the 20th Century, Flowers and Chocolates again and again on the same lame ass February 14. And the worst part is, you dumb ass pieces of shit bitches fall for it every time. Goddamn. Are you all retards? Can't you just tell the one you love three simple words instead of feeding the corporate market? Do you know how much flowers cost? You could feed a family in Uganda for a day with the shit you spend on your dozen roses. You know how much the words "I love you" costs? Think about it.
As for me, I'm out of here.
What does it mean? I don't know. And hell if I cared. I've lived so long in this poisoned planet that everything has lost meaning. All I know is, I still exist, and I'm living my life. I don't care what you think. I don't care if you like me or not. All I care about is me, myself, and I.
Getting back to the occasion, Valentines...Flowers...Chocolates...C'mon! Don't you see it? Every single year, ever since the beginning of the 20th Century, Flowers and Chocolates again and again on the same lame ass February 14. And the worst part is, you dumb ass pieces of shit bitches fall for it every time. Goddamn. Are you all retards? Can't you just tell the one you love three simple words instead of feeding the corporate market? Do you know how much flowers cost? You could feed a family in Uganda for a day with the shit you spend on your dozen roses. You know how much the words "I love you" costs? Think about it.
As for me, I'm out of here.
Monday, February 13, 2006
A conversation with myself.....
On my way home, I rode with my dad. We didn't talk much. He fell asleep as I was driving. The traffic was terrible and I was bored. Before I go any further, let me introduce you to Bob. Bob is my nemesis, my alter-ego, my only friend. He does not exist in this physical realm. He resides in the deep dark abyss of my mind. He comes out whenever I need to keep myself in check.
It's been a long time since we've spoken. I've been at peace lately. As I was driving, almost halfway home, Bob came out and had something to say. This was our conversation.
Tim: Hey Bob. Long time no see.
Bob: Yeah, I missed you man.
Tim: I thought I was never going to see you again.
Bob: Well, you thought wrong.
Tim: Guess so. So, what's on your mind?
Bob: Well Tim, I've been thinking...Where is this life headed, man?
Tim: As of the moment, I have no idea, Bob.
Bob: You better decide soon, dude. You're not getting any younger.
Tim: I know, I know.
Bob: What do you know?
Tim: Uhm... What do you mean?
Bob: You've been through four years of college. What do you know?
Tim: A little bit of this, a little bit of that.
Bob: You don't know squat!
Tim: Yeah, I guess you're right.
Bob: Of course I am! Get it together, you lazy bum!
Tim: I'm not a bum! I have work!
Bob: Well, other people may think so, but to me, you still are one.
Tim: Okay, you know me better than anyone else. I'll take your word for it.
Bob: Of course. Now, get up off your ass and get your life on track, bitch....
After that, I got home safely, my dad went to his room, and went into mine. I've had some time to reflect and I realized. Yes, I'm a bum. And yes, I need to get my life on track. However, I'm not exactly sure how I can manage that. Fortunately, I have a very supportive family and most importantly, I have Bob to show me the way.
'Till next time, Bye.
It's been a long time since we've spoken. I've been at peace lately. As I was driving, almost halfway home, Bob came out and had something to say. This was our conversation.
Tim: Hey Bob. Long time no see.
Bob: Yeah, I missed you man.
Tim: I thought I was never going to see you again.
Bob: Well, you thought wrong.
Tim: Guess so. So, what's on your mind?
Bob: Well Tim, I've been thinking...Where is this life headed, man?
Tim: As of the moment, I have no idea, Bob.
Bob: You better decide soon, dude. You're not getting any younger.
Tim: I know, I know.
Bob: What do you know?
Tim: Uhm... What do you mean?
Bob: You've been through four years of college. What do you know?
Tim: A little bit of this, a little bit of that.
Bob: You don't know squat!
Tim: Yeah, I guess you're right.
Bob: Of course I am! Get it together, you lazy bum!
Tim: I'm not a bum! I have work!
Bob: Well, other people may think so, but to me, you still are one.
Tim: Okay, you know me better than anyone else. I'll take your word for it.
Bob: Of course. Now, get up off your ass and get your life on track, bitch....
After that, I got home safely, my dad went to his room, and went into mine. I've had some time to reflect and I realized. Yes, I'm a bum. And yes, I need to get my life on track. However, I'm not exactly sure how I can manage that. Fortunately, I have a very supportive family and most importantly, I have Bob to show me the way.
'Till next time, Bye.
Today.........
I'm at the office right now, doing my job and writing in this journal at the same time. I used to be a commercial blogger, but now I'm not sure how to describe my occupation. I'm not even sure if I'm top level management or just an ordinary wage slave. I'm getting paid enough to get by. I'm not complaining.
I'm trying to get myself a programming job without jeopardizing my current job. I have no intentions whatsoever of leaving my company. I love these guys. On the other hand, I also have to watch out for myself. I don't really have an exquisite lifestyle. Here's my day to day routine.
1) Wake up.
2) Bathe.
3) Work.
4) Go Home.
5) Eat.
6) Sleep.
That is exactly how I live my life. There's nothing in between. But my point is, I have to look out for my future. I have to save up some dough for the rainy days. That's why I've got to go out, look for more work. Unfortunately, I'm also a very passive person. I do everything on my own time. If I don't have any motivation, I don't move.
Right now, I'm under a wee bit of stress in the company. We're working on this project which has a deadline. We didn't make the deadline, so our client gave us an extension. By the looks of it, we're not going to make that extended deadline either. The worst part is, there's nothing I could do about it. It's out of my hands.
That's all I got for now. Bye.
I'm trying to get myself a programming job without jeopardizing my current job. I have no intentions whatsoever of leaving my company. I love these guys. On the other hand, I also have to watch out for myself. I don't really have an exquisite lifestyle. Here's my day to day routine.
1) Wake up.
2) Bathe.
3) Work.
4) Go Home.
5) Eat.
6) Sleep.
That is exactly how I live my life. There's nothing in between. But my point is, I have to look out for my future. I have to save up some dough for the rainy days. That's why I've got to go out, look for more work. Unfortunately, I'm also a very passive person. I do everything on my own time. If I don't have any motivation, I don't move.
Right now, I'm under a wee bit of stress in the company. We're working on this project which has a deadline. We didn't make the deadline, so our client gave us an extension. By the looks of it, we're not going to make that extended deadline either. The worst part is, there's nothing I could do about it. It's out of my hands.
That's all I got for now. Bye.
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