Well, at this point in time, I have no idea what to do or where to go. My life is literally at a stand still. I'm still 22 years old and I'm already in a stagnant state. I feel the need to retire and enjoy life's finest things. But I know I shouldn't. Mainly because I have yet to experience more of what the world has to offer. Bob keeps reminding me of that. Quite frankly, I'm happy with how much I've accomplished and how far I've gone. And this is what scares me the most. Because I haven't done much. I get contented even though it's time to go for more. I have more responsibilities to take care of, and obligations to fulfill, but the lazy ass me is saying, "Settle down, Relax..." when I know I shouldn't.
I'm only going where the wind takes me. I should be making my own waves. I should be the captain of my heart. I should be a leader somewhere in my soul. But no, I'm happy being here, where I'm at. This isn't right. This shouldn't be the case. I know my capacity as a thinker. I know I can do more with my life. I know I can make a difference in this forsaken planet. I just don't know where or when to execute. Or I know when and where, it's just that my laziness is eating out the better part of me. I have not the slightest idea.
I'm going crazy. I'm going nuts. I'm just glad I'm not alone.
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