Death is the Best Option

Life could be a dream. Unfortunately, mine is a full force nightmare. I don't know if I will survive a few more months of this. I have no life outside of work, nothing to look forward to every day that passes. I think if someone kills me now, it would be the most humane thing a person can do for me. Ever since I started living, I have been confused on what to do with my life. Fortunately, I never had any identity crises. But I believe I'm suffering worse. At least people who are confused with their identity have other people with the same problem to turn to. I, on the other hand, am literally alone. I have nobody who understands exactly what I'm going through. People who have taken little glimpses into the life I'm living say that I have it good. I'm a very lucky person. I am very lucky to be me. I do not feel that way. I feel I can be more, but I have not the faintest idea where to start. Hell, I don't even like my job. As a matter of fact, I don't like any job. I don't know, I think I'm better off dead.